“I have no desire to suffer twice, in reality and then in retrospect.”
Dear 2017 Tenda,
Your year will be filled with victories and heartbreaks that will force you to face your authentic self.
You have been living on a society based timeline which has forced certain situations in your life to prematurely reveal their existence in an environment not worthy of your full manifestations.
Death will be a theme.
Your sister will leave you with no last words, explanation nor preparation.
The emptiness she leaves will leave you restless and cold.
Unprepared for the healing that her departure will become a catalyst for.
Tenda. Be still.
Your love in January will be your greatest disappointment by October so don´t take him too serious.
However, don´t regret that HE happened, but embrace the vulnerability you showed by softening to his aches and excusing each one of his weaknesses.
His lies are merely his own justifications of being a man.
The irony is, in trying so hard not to be like the father he claims to not know, he inherited a crucial flaw: SELFISHNESS.
Your job was never to change him so be proud that you loved a liar with no judgment and forgive yourself for succumbing to a leech that fed off your emotions, disrespected your loyalty, and disregarded your happiness.
But don´t fret sweetheart-
That mid year confusion will be overshadowed by the complex simplicity of your gentle heart that realized that romance was unequally yoked.
Erasing that false sentiment will be the beginning of your healing.
Tenda, just feel.
So 2017 Tenda… GO THROUGH.
Go through each emotion and open yourself up to the possibility that this year won´t be perfect, but it´s undeniably necessary.
Your strengths will be revealed.
Your fears will be unleashed.
Your reactions to the events around you will determine the tone of your 2018 year.
Will you mourn all the losses?
And cry when you need to – not cower behind the walls of pain?
Will you be brave enough to not fear loving the person who deserves you and stop dealing with the suckers that weaken you?
Will you allow your father in heaven and the universe to deliver your blessings?
Or will you let your insecurities and fears continue to block those too?
Let not the lows keep you stuck.
Each part of you is necessary to reach your success, so take care of your heart, mind and health.
Your 2017 is simply a roller coaster prelude to the beautiful manifestations that your 2018 will reveal.
Signed with love,
¨We pass through the present with our eyes blindfolded. We are permitted merely to sense and guess at what we are actually experiencing. Only later when the cloth is untied can we glance at the past and find out what we have experienced and what meaning it has.”
― Milan Kunder